A month full of Disturbances

August 2014, which had just passed, had been a month full of disturbances, lows for me in every manner. Be it Personal, be it professional. The details related to it, will be explained as we progress in the blog. Before delving into the problems, we must also pay some attention to the factors which kept me going despite the problems viz a viz Movies, Running and Pankaj, of course.

August 2014, will always be remembered as one of the worst months in my life and i wanted to put it in records hence this blog happened. To start with, the month started with another fight with lovely. (He has been the most talked about person in last few blogs). Which made me feel so disheartened that i could not resist myself but to cry once again because of him.

Then there was office issues which were affecting me in a big way. As government employees are most of the times busy in conspiring something or the other against somebody in the office, this time target was myself. They all poked me to the level that i openly declared protest against my seniors. Which was reported to the higher authorities.

Thirdly, family issues kept me busy as construction work is in progress at home. Some decisions were to be taken about which myself and Papa had some arguments. Finally, mom intervened and resolved the issues but all this created unnecessary tension at back home. In middle of all this, my younger brother was diagnosed with few stones in his kidney. Which was shocking news for me as i had never imagined myself into a situation where one of my family member could be treated for some major problem except cold, cough etc.

In short, my life was fully screwed and there was no way out to escape all problems. So i had no choice but to fight. I strengthened myself mentally and introspected thoroughly. Lovely got replaced by Pankaj. Everybody needs a person in life to share his/her feelings, lovely did not stand out beside me in difficult times pertaining to his own issues so i took a step forward towards Pankaj thinking he would help me in getting out of the chaos. Though Lovely had been a support system for last one year but in past few months he had ignored me to the level that i am helpless to leave him at his own terms.

Office problems still continues and movies give me the much needed boost to tackle them in the best way possible without losing my cool. I am looking forward to resolve them at the earliest because it's been very tough to enact as if everything is fine. GOD is testing my patience. Even i am not sure that how it will end.

Family issues were never there, they were just overrated by myself only. Moreover, my mother has always been a friend to me. I have shared everything with her and can openly talk to her regarding any problem. Finally, construction work is smoothly going on. Building his/her own home is a dream for everybody in life. I am living my dream these days.

Regards

Parul Goyal