Mind- A organ full of thoughts, ideas, feelings

These days I am thinking of writing another blog. But don’t know where to start from. Because neither I have been on any trip with my friends nor there is any motivation to write another as it was there in the last one. So I am bit confused what to write about but determined to keep the flow going on.

Today 3rd of June, 2010 @ around 12’o clock, sitting idle in the company (as usual), some thoughts are coming into my mind which are comprised of good and bad both. One side of my mind is cursing me for not concentrating upon studies which was my main aim some months ago. Don’t know what happened, but trying to explore the reason for the same and hoping that I will resume my pace shortly. Moreover next week I have training in the company on the subject which I like the most for which I have to prepare so that I could clear all my doubts that I have. In spite of that I am not willing to study at all yet I am writing all this c**p. It’s been going on for last few days. Everyday I think about it, but in vain. Do I miss my previous company and colleagues? Does life take such drastic change when you shift your base? Do all people feel the same when they switch over? But now it’s been more than 3 months, I don’t think that shifting company is the reason for my nostalgic behavior. Moreover I have shifted with my friends, still I feel alone sometimes. Someone has rightly said, “Maintain some distance with the persons whom you want to be with you throughout your life.”

I want some inspiration, some good thoughts, events, ideas, moments that I could cherish while writing them and keep them as sweet memories with me throughout my life. At the same time, I am worried about the professional values and ethics since I am utilizing my office hours thinking about such issues which are not going to produce any output for me in the reality. Yet I am confidant that if I would have not been thinking about writing another blog, surely I would have been indulging myself into some useless politics of the company. Hence the verdict is that I am making a good move in terms of my personnel and professional life both.

Ok now its time for lunch. It’s already 1.15pm. My Colleagues are calling me for lunch. I will continue after that. After coming back I would like to give a frame to my thoughts and will try to jot down them in another blog of mine.

Hey, I am back. Its 2.15pm now. Don’t think that our lunch time is from 1.15pm to 2.15pm but it’s anytime between 1pm to 2.30pm. We, a group of 8 people, generally spend around a full hour for doing lunch as all of us believe that it is very important to digest our meals properly (laughing out loud….). Further, you all must be waiting to know about the food. But to tell you the truth, I bring lunch from my flat generally, so it always tastes better than the one which is provided in company cafeteria. Moreover we all had JALEBI after lunch which was super delicious and hot at the same time.

Let’s resume our job now. One more thing that generally comes to my mind and which I would like to talk about here is that college life and professional life are two sides of a coin. They are meant to be separate. You can’t mix both of them. In college, the breeze of freedom, happiness, friendship etc follows you wherever you go but in company high tides of politics, responsibility, rivalry etc tries to trap you in every way possible. Since I have been working for two long years in different cultures, I have gone through various stages of professional life which in result have made me so strong and adjustable that now I can handle any type of situation successfully. I have figured out clearly the difference between the two ways of living. ****************************************************

My mobile watch is showing time as 4’o clock. Where the time has flown away? Actually, one reason is that it takes time to pen down the feelings into correct words which reflect exact meaning and picture of your mind to avoid any miscommunication. Another reason is that from 3’o clock onwards I was not available on my workstation as I was visiting my colleagues on their respective seats to chat about the things which are meaningless yet we do just to feel lighter.

Now coming back to topic of discussion, sometimes I feel people around me in my daily routine life, are having a sense of superiority complex. They think whatever they say or do is right, no matter whether the other person agrees with it or not. However I usually don’t react because I consent myself easily assuming that their way of thinking and looking at life is different than me and hence collide has to happen. But honestly that’s not fair on their part because they should keep themselves in my shoes and then take a judgment. Whenever they want to switch over in their favor they can, but when I do they have a problem. I am fed of all these cheap mentality and want to move on beyond such accusations which are being put on me in everyday life.

On the happier side, I am getting used to the company culture as I have to mingle with it as soon as possible because right now I am not thinking of shifting my job except EIL. So among all these issues, I am not at all giving any importance to the people perception about me. I really don’t care what they think about me and how they have judged me. Though I do feel need of discussing it with them to sort it out sometimes. I think, now I have become mature enough to handle their criticism. I am not boasting about myself but I think I am right on my part. The People are becoming more pretentious & fake. I have always believed in clarifying things on the faces rather than back biting. Before commenting on anybody or giving judgment on anybody, people should look into themselves. One more thing I have adopted in my life that I analyze everyday activities and outcomes, whatever happen throughout the day before I go to sleep. It gives me self confidence, power of thinking and the way converging to correct decision making. I feel it is better to resolve the issues before the knot gets converted into a really messy puzzle which will be very difficult to solve later on.


It is 6’o clock already. Now I have to leave for home before my boss gives me some work and which is supposed to be completed by today only (as he normally does). So it is better to escape as soon as possible. Catch u all tomorrow.

Today 5th of June I am again here to pen down my emotions. Its 9.45am by my mobile watch. Yesterday 4th of June I was not able to connect to u all due to some activities comprised of personnel and professional. Moreover we celebrated our chairman Mr. Anil Dhirubhai Ambani Birthday with a cake cutting ceremony along with snacks and drinks. Even today I am not sure whether I will be able to complete the narration of the emotions of mine or not. Because I am loaded with work (pleasantly surprised….). As a result of which, any time I could be in offline mode. Today being Saturday I will be leaving office in a good mood hoping that some good time is waiting for me ahead on this weekend. Besides Sunday effect, the reason for my happiness is that I am going for RAJNEETI with my friend and being a movie freak I am all geared up for the much anticipated movie of the season.**************************************************

Today, 11th of June @ 1.10pm, Friday, I am saying hello to you all who have been connected with me since the beginning of this journey which started on 3rd of June. Let me start with the movie where we got disconnected. Movie was great as predicted. There is no point in talking about it as you all must have seen it by now; if at all haven’t, go check it out. Today is the last day of the week and moreover this weekend we have two days off being second Saturday of the month. I need to answer why I have not been active in the whole week as I already told you my plan throughout his week. For those who have joined me recently, I was busy with a technical training organized by our company for four days. Two great steel design professors from IIT MADRAS conducted it which helped me a lot in understanding the course in depth because I was not that confident in that particular subject. A big thanks goes to my college steel professor (identity is being kept under cover due to inconvenient consequences which may happen in future). Training brought back the college days memories as during many sessions in the training I was dozing which I used to do in college also. Someone has rightly said, “Changing environment does not change a person’s attitude.”

I think now its time to stop otherwise it will lose its significance. In beginning I was not in a position to write down another blog, instead I was just thinking of what to write about, where to start from? But now, almost a week after, I feel that my thoughts have taken a shape of a blog already which is mainly concentrating upon my thoughts & feelings these days. In this creation of mine, you may not find humor, entertainment, excitement but yet you can connect with it imagining yourself in my place. I am not an avid writer but I have always been good in expressing my feelings and thoughts (finger crossed).

Moreover it gives me learning that even if one does not have anything to write, yet he can do wonders with the words. One should not wait for the opportunity but ought to be ready for the same anytime as I did. One more message I would like to give here to all people that always discuss with your loved ones, the ones you care about, about the issues, differences, problems so that later on you should have feeling of contentment otherwise you may end up with having some complications in your relations with your loved ones.


Some of you might be thinking what it was all about? But as you know I was here to narrate my thoughts which are coming to mind again and again. But for those who are highly disappointed should ask one question to themselves that have they ever tried to pen down their feelings? If not, Atleast appreciate if someone else does it.



Thanks
PARUL GOYAL